The End...

The End...

Have you ever ruined your own life? I have. It was this girl. I thought we were meant to be. I was a dick. She finally gave up on taking my crap. She hates my guts. I don't blaim her. I wish I could take everything back, but it doesn't matter now. She hates me, and that is that. The end is here for my friendship with her. All gone, all the memories. They are stuck in my head and are never going to leave. I will miss her deeply. I will be in agony. I was such an ass, and now she is gone. If you have any ideas to help me out, maybe I still have a shot of just being her friend. Someone please. Give me your comments. I need some advice. So she wont hate me. God life sucks when you hurt someone else. I wish I could go back, and not do all that shit. We were perfect her and I. Until I ruined it with one big lie. I said I was angry with her. I wasn't. If I could go back. I would not have done it. Please Allison don't hate me. I needed your attention. That is the only reason I did it, and I lost you for it. I will hurt deeply, but it will subside. If I can only hear that you don't hate me for life. Please Allison, I know it is final. But maybe one day, we can look past the problems and start over again. What did you feel the day you met me? I know what I felt. It was a fire. Deep in my soul. A fire that would burn forever, and can't be put out. I wish we could try just one last time. But I know it's the end. I ruined our lives.

Well for all my old visitors and some of them new. Here is what I call guess my mood.

This one is special. There is no guessing. It is right above this line of text. For those who want to know it. My mood is empty. What kind of mood is that? Well it is not a mood your are correct. It is a feeling. It stands for empty. Because that is what I feel inside. Empty for all of that shit I put you through. I wish we could have made it but my problems were too much. I am sorry to my viewers but I am going to take a leave of absence. I have to find myself. I will visit my blog every day. To read comments. But there will be no new posts until I decide to come back.

Once again. I am sorry Allison. I wish I could make it all go away. I am a dick. And I don't blame you for leaving me.

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Sun Oct 16, 2005 12:17 am MST by Lakers Tickets

Comment *** Like they always say, things will get better, and there are more fish in the sea. It's hard when you hurt someone and can't take their pain away. But, she will have to forgive you eventually, or else she'll never be able to move on. If you want to continue being her friend you have to give her TIME first. To heal, to forgive, and to move on. Then, maybe she won't be so blinded by her own emotions, and she'll be able to think clearly and decide whether or not she wants to stay friends.Don't be so hard on yourself. Everyone makes mistakes. But, at least you understand what you did wrong..some people are too stuck on themselves to take any blame at all. Well, good luck. Tah Tah Insomniac

Fri Aug 6, 2004 9:08 pm MST by Insomniac

Comment Listen man, I don't know if this is the first time that you have felt that hurting, but I can only assure you that things will get better. They always do, and I gaurantee that someone else will make you feel the same way some day. You think that it will get easier, but it never does. But the important thing is that you don't get lost in the emotion, that you can (someday) take a step back and see all the good things that came out of it, instead of being consumed by the way it ended. You will move on, and you will be happy again. But don't ever forget, because this is just one of lifes great lessons, even though it's a bitch....

Fri Aug 6, 2004 12:30 am MST by Nolan

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